[edit] i am honestly not cheesed off anymore the reason i was pissed is because of the way people carried themselves i hated the way i was the only one with the documents thats why halfway i gave up carrying my file around i hated the way i was so tired but you know what. i hated running around i just want to be a normal camper no one really knows how i feel feeling of how inadequet. camp turned out fine people were definately blessed i was blessed in one way. i know who are my true friends. hard knocks and all. i honestly did not think the first day was screwed. God somehow carried us through and thru all the chaos it was fine the sec 1s i remember were complaining about their groups and giving me a super hard time by stealing my stuff and all but it turned out alright i think. something that daniel shared today spiritual leadership i have so many things running through my head now. dont think i am some cold hearted person you dont even know when my heart bleeds i was thinking about stuff during QT so dont go critisizing me. i have feelings too so dont go around hurting them i did not WANT to go to church today i wanted to not go to church for sometime cos i did not want to face everybody everytime i feel down i have no one to go to. cos everytime someone else needs me so i have to pick myself up and go on before worship and after QT no one knew how i felt not like anyone cared. i honestly cannot talk to anyone. how insensititve can people get. dont think everything is fine and dandy cos i dont show it. dont expect me to go around solving all your problems cos i cant i have no energy all walls are closing on me now and there is no door. sorry the more i think about camp the more angsty i feel about it. i have no idea why i am angry i just am i try to remind myself of Gods love but i just feel so angsty [/edit]
camp. happy it is over yet i dont really want it to be over. i miss the clicking group we are so cool, sitting around and clicking. talking about the ugimbos miss staying up late at night just crapping with the girls i had a total of 7 hrs of sleep for the whole camp i just miss staying in church and not worrying about school all you need to care about is hanging out
new way of looking at camps now so used to sitting back and just enjoying camp organising it and carrying it out is super tiring i honestly did not learn much from camp cos i was away from every theme talk always doing some stuff so it is kinda bad looking back should not have agreed to be GL was always away for worship/games/t-shirts i think the t-shirt is really cool (: Worship was super cool the way even though we are not all pro musicians and stuff. faith, you are really good dont care what the ugimbos say or do. it was fun doing worship and it somehow mad me feel happy. just plain happy there is like nothing else to explain it. i dont know if i want to relive the whole experience of camp but it was interesting became closer to some people the whole politics of church is very very compliacted. just thankful i got people like faith and choe
family day was after camp and it was really cool they really put alot of effort in the games everything was really nice the fun part came when we had to destroy everything all of us seemed to have some destructive spirit in us felt good ripping stuff up it is like destress jon and james went to wrap me with the cardboard and i got a new home under a pile of cardboard. thanks alot. all the toys that were around was also super cool i want one of the guns to play with who knew kids these days are so violent they hurt super bad when you get shot and they are alot like real guns the short guns are super fun to play with the gerbils are dam cool to play they are like faster versions of hamsters with long tails and equally cute. faith choey and me went around for awhile and slacked i missed the dinner with the chocolate fountain and nice food. oh wells
came home and slept like never before did not even care that my hair was wet so when i woke up my hair was erm interesting had dinner at 10pm stayed up until nearing midnight talking before sleeping so this morning i was late for church
Some stuff are just not worth getting pissed off at. wasted too much energy just they way things was done how people treated others. it is irritating maybe they dont realise it but others do dont just say something and go back on your word scold someone but join in later it is not fair to alot of people and it sucks. now it does not matter i will forgive and forget life is too short to keep being angry.